It seems so silly to be journalling about a TV episode, especially one in a series that is so wildly popular (at least in my circle of friends). But this episode in particular affected me very deeply. That is to say, I’ve been depressed and/or crying most of the day.
There were two parts that got me the most. The first one was where John is trying to shoot the chief in order to save the chief’s wife. (Is that’s what he was?) Out of all the tests, that was really the hardest one for me to watch.
The second part was where we learned that Eurus drowned Sherlock’s best friend. He was only, like, 5. Actually any scene with Eurus as a little girl was incredibly difficult to watch. But the scene in particular with the little boy… I just wanted to go hug my little son (who was asleep, so I didn’t).
It was also hard to watch Eurus at the very end, when we caught just a glimpse of her utter, beyond-help brokennness. Really sent home the point that severely mentally ill people are just that: severely mentally ill people.
All in all, watching that episode reminded me a lot of my last year or two of college where I read all those horrible books that were devastatingly tragic, dark, and hopeless. I’m just glad I have the space to process Sherlock. I didn’t have that luxury in college.
In hindsight, I probably should have just told my professors that I couldn’t handle it emotionally and couldn’t make those deadlines to finish the books, because it was just too much. I wonder how my life would have been different if I had been able to do that.
This is not about the final episode, but I REALLY loved this quote from Sherlock in episode 2 of season 4.
“In saving my life she conferred a value on it. It is a currency I do not know how to spend.”
Just LOVE. I can’t post it on Facebook because my MIL hasn’t seen season 4 yet.