Return of the Green-Eyed Monster

Grr… Okay, I really shouldn’t be this angry. She seems okay.

I e-mailed Cassie the day I wrote the entry about her; it read:

“Wow… That was kind of a shock. I didn’t realize Nate had you reading his e-mails for him.

“Um… I really don’t know what else to say… Wow.

“Do you have your own e-mail address? I feel kind of awkward writing to someone else at his address.

“Sorry about this tongue-tied e-mail. Talk to you later.”

Not exactly friendly, but a lot better than it might have been. Anyway, she just wrote me back. She sounds nice. Young and naive, for sure… Nate said she’s a freshman… But that kind of helped.

She wrote: “oh gosh im really sorry, he probably should have let you know i was reading
them for him, but yea his computer doesnt work. gosh im sorry… [gives me her e-mail]. but dont worry i wont repeat anything youve said or anything like that. sorry again”

Brother. Like I’m worried about her repeating what I’ve said. What I was REALLY upset about was herreading my e-mails to him!

Ick… The green-eyed monster resurfaces. Oh dear… I thought I was over that? But, alas, Paul’s words are ever true: “I love God’s law with all my heart. But there is another law at work within me that is at war with my mind. This law wins the fight and makes me a slave to the sin that is still within me.” (Romans 7:22-23, NLT)

I’m way too possessive over guys…

::cries:: Why can’t I win this war??


P.S. Oh, yeah, I forgot to mention I kind of got angry at Nate on the phone about this too. Told him quite frankly I was never going to e-mail him again. That was a stupid remark to make… At least, it was stupid to make it in that tone of voice. I probably won’t ever e-mail him again, but I could have said it in a gentler way. {sigh} Fiddlesticks.

On a lighter note… There is some good news about Nate. The last time he called me–a week or so ago–he was HIMSELF again! I got the old Nate back! He wasn’t exhausted and we teased and laughed and it was the best feeling I’d had on the phone with him in a long time! Yay for no-longer-packed schedules… It makes life SO much easier.


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